My problem is I Think 2 Much!

Hello,

I just came back home after watching Scooby Doo!!

Events of the day:
Nothing much at work-did my normal stuff and this time i went to the counter and had to do some data-entry wit the recipts and spend about quite some time counting money and also packing coins.

Then Kumar called me during lunch and asked me if i would like to watch 'Scooby Doo' with him tomorrow. Then i thought and decided to bring my brother along since he likes to watch it too. But then my brother has tuition tomorrow so we went today. Came back, had a bath and then went for the movie.Cool movie-entertaining as usual!

Ok ok, i know that i just met Kumar yesterday and i should not have gone out with him today...but then...i felt like watching 'Scooby Doo'..and cute guy some more....so...Well i think i should stop going out with him for some time so that he doesn't think i am a cheap girl who comes to his beck and call!I should maintain my standard!!!

This Saturday is my off and i am planning to go to VIP since the band is leaving soon for India. But i wonder if my dad will say ok? Hopefully! I really wanna see the cute band leader. And i surely know that if i go this Sat, Kumar will surely be there.

And ya, i wore the dress i bought yesterday. Man, this was i think the second time that i wore a spaghetti when i'm going out. It looked very nice on me! I like that dress!
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Oh well,

Saturday was nothing much. After work came back and some of my aunts had some to my place to spend some time with my mum. Then all these ladies started talking about my marriage. Got on my nerves but i kept quiet. Stupid Aunties! Then talked to Kumar for a while and then went to sleep. I have been sleepy very late for the past few days. On Friday night, i slept at 4. Shit!

Today, i did all my house work and then went to my uncle's place to help him install his Internet connection again. And after that....i went out for dinner with Kumar!! Hehehee!!Before meeting him, i met Aminah at Causeway Point since she said that she was bored and then we went to Metro and i bought a dress for $19.90. A black spaghetti 3/4 dress with red and yellow designs at the top and bottom. It looks lovely but i do not know where to wear it too. I can wear it to work but it will spoil the look of dress if i wear a cardigan over it. And i'll also look pregnant!!

Well, Kumar still looked the same, just that i had pictured a person more fairer and with a fiercer face. His about my colour or a bit darker and with a nice and friendly face and he looks very cute when he laughs!!! He has 2 Dracula teeth that always could my eyes!! Hehe..ok enough!!!

He picked me up from Causeway Point and his bike does look great!Then we went to a coffeeshop at Bukit Timah and had dinner. We ate and talked at the coffeeshop. First date at Coffee-shop-cool right! Then he dropped me at home and gave me his helmet bag as my handbag was in it.

Hehehehehe!!! Seems like a nice guy but i don't trust men!
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You know i slept at 3 am yesterday. I was talking on the phone with Kumar from about 11+ till 3am! Aiyoh so terrible right!!

He has been msging and calling me a lot. Its like, he's a nice guy but i very scared to develop any feelings to prevent being hurt. Then he also like talk to me one kind-u know like trying to find out what i like and more about me and you know talking like he likes me and stuff. He's an ok guy but i kinda forgot his face. But i do remember that he does look cute!

The previous night also i was talking to him and i slept late. Aiyoh, i just need to control myself and reduce talking to him on the phone. Don't want any stupid things to happen.

Anyway i'm in the office now. The lady from Eddington called and told me that there is no class today and i decided to go home and rest.

I think i'm gonna have rice for lunch. I have stopped eating rice during lunch time at work and i know that i have to eat rice at home also. I don't have any exercise and i don't wanna have a tummy-very ugly!Why i wanna eat rice for lunch is that my mum has gone to her workplace to attend a award ceremony. She is getting an long-service award. She's been working at HP for 30 years!!! My salutes to her. And i know that she might not cook when she come back as she might be tired.

I still looking for a teaching job and still no luck. I called the recruitment dept yesterday to find out about my status and she told me that she'll inform in writing. Aiyah-i think i might not get this job too! I'll just keep my fingers crossed!
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Today was my half-day off!! Yipee!!!!

After work, went to my brother's school to check up on him and then went to a coffeeshop near our old place to eat and met Vanitha's father and mother and we had food together. Vanitha joined us after work. Then the oldies were dicussing about going to Raagawood on Saturday and i was like thinking-NO!!! I wanna rest at home!!I hope their plans get spoilt!! Then came back and cleaned the kitchen cabinets a bit.

Now my life is like-TOO MANY MEN, TOO LITTLE TIME!!! I think i should stop friends with too many guys. Not enough time to talk to them.

Anyway, the other time i went to my uncle's house and we looked through this numerology book and here are some details:

~My lucky days:1,10,19,28

~Lucky days but i shouldn't start anything on these days:4,13,22,31

~Unlucky days-8,17,26

~Life Partner's Destiny Number-2,4,5,3,6

~Should not marry these destiny numbers- 1,7,9

~Lucky colours-Yellow, Gold, Light Red/Blue

~Anti-colurs-Black & Brown

~Lucky gems-Ruby, Topaz


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Hello!!!

23/4/2004:

Yesterday must have the sleepiest day of mine!!! Since i came at 5+ in the morning, i decided not to sleep just in case i can't wake up when i want to go to work.

Then the moment i sat in 300(feeder bus from my place to the interchange), i started to feel sleepy and luckily at that time, Kumar msged me and i called him and we chatted for a while till i reached the office. Then i moment i reached the office, at about 8.45 am, i couldn't control myself!!!! I started feeling very sleepy and so i went to the toilet and slept in the cubicle for about 10 mins and then i came back to the office and made tea and drank almost 2 cups of tea to keep myself awake till lunch time. Then at 11.15am, i pasted a Post-it on my pc-'LUNCH BREAK-DO NOT DISTURB' and slept on the my desk. Then woke up at 12 and then had a chocolate donut as lunch.

You know if i had not had a dept meeting later on, i would have taken leave or MC. Then at around 3+, i started feeling sleepy again and then i went up to the cafeteria and bought some toast bread. I was eating to keep myself awake.

Then the day went on with me fighting to keep myself awake and then i almost fell asleep during the meeting and Jumari woke me up. Then i went back, had dinner and watched 'Incredible Tales' and watched only about 15 mins of Smallville. I just could not keep myself awake.

You know yesterday i talked to Kumar a lot at different intervals.His parents and most of his relatives have already migrated and he's living alone. He's staying in Ang Mo Kio, near my aunt's place.I think i didn't mention this but he has a bike!!!! A Suzuki bike!!! Cool!!!!

Then i also spoke to the guy who gave his number on Monday. He's name is John and he's 20(young chap, small boy). And he is currently doing his NS with 7 more months to go. He's staying in Yishun. And that guy tot i was 19 or 18 thanks to being small-sized!!

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Good Morning and i just got home!!!Hahaha!

Ok, It was quite a boring and relaxing day at work. It was ultimately busy at Service Centre and so Elsie was sitting outside at the counters most of the time-letting me skive on the job a bit.

Then after work, went to This Fashion and bought a spagetti tube for my saree and a wig at the Aries shop beside it for the pageant. Then Aminah came over and helped me with getting ready and i really looked good. Thanks to Aminah!!

Then went to Raagawood and did the whole show. I made a few mistakes here and there but managed to cover it up. I looked really very sexy in my Hip-Hop round. Hehehe!!

And the results were-I got into the Semi-Finals!!! Me, Shyla, Suhaila and Mathana got into the semi-finals but i think that Suhaila doesn't deserve it. There was another girl called Sharon who was very pretty but she did not get thru. She was close to tears! But then i kept encouraging her that there are other changes!Aminah's friends Jerry and Raja came down to support me.

Then we all went to VIP to freak out for a while. By the time we went there it was already 2.30 so we only danced for a while. A cute guy gave me his number..hehehe!

Then the four of us went to Newton to makan and then Raja dropped me at home. Thank God he had a car! Save money!

I decided not to sleep as i'm afraid that i might not be able to wake up on time!

Ok, i'll go and do some stuff to keep awake!


Looks blur right, but this was taken in the toilet after we were dressed for the saree round.
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Good Morning! I'm having coffee again-just thought of drinking some.

Saturday:
Was working on Saturday. After work went for a interview at a Kindergarten at Sunset Way. Decided not to accept the job as it was far for me to travel there and the pay sucks. Too low. Then came back and my mum told me that Vanitha's father wanted to bring us to clubbing later at nite.I didn't want to go. I wanted to stay at home and watch tv since they were playing a nice Tamil movie that i hadn't seen.And also because my knees are painful. But no choice. So i went for my rehearsal and then hanged around wiht Aminah at Clarke Quay till they came there after a function. My rehearsal was ok. It was confirmed that the pageant was on Monday-finally!!!

My mum, my uncle, Vanitha's father and mother, Vanitha, me and Aminah went to VIP and we had an good time. I was dancing with everyone except for my Uncle as it was quite a long time since he came to clubbing. Then he was very surprised at the tequila girls who came to dance on stage when the DJ was playing songs. He was so smitted with the girls that he kept talking about till we went back.

Anyway one guy passed his number to me on the dance floor when Aminah and i were dancing for one song. Hehehe!! Then one guy who dancing beside us told me that i had a nice nose! Hehehehe!!! That was cute!! But then i disapppeared before he could give me his number. Now i have a pimple on my nose!

Except for Aminah, the rest of us left the pub at 2.45 am as everyone was hungry. Then we went to Pasir Panjang for supper and then went headed home.


Sunday:
Woke up at 9 to help Papa with mopping the house. Then i cooked. Made rasam(indian sour soup) and fried fish to go wit it. Then i slept from 1.15 to 4 pm. I needed this sleep. Must look fresh for the pageant. Then in the evening, i msged the guy who made friends with me. His name is Kumar.Found out that he's 23. Working in the army.(His camp is just walking distance from me house!!!) He's staying in Ang Mo Kio. But i can't really remember his face. Just vaguely.

Then i slept at 12. Don't know why but even though i slept in the afternoon-i was quite sleepy at night.

Now, i'm in the office and Elsie is in so i'm kinda cautious today. Anyway on Saturday she spoke to me saying that my work has improved and that i have put in effort but then i still have to improve. Hehe!

Tonight is the quarter-finals and i'm not even excited one bit. I think i will be once i'm there. Anyway Aminah is coming to my house to help me dress. I doesn't matter to me whether i get in or not but then Wish Me Luck!!! I hope to enjoy myself tonite even if i don't win!

Anyway i decided that i am not going clubbing for the next one month or so. My knees are very painful from all that dancing!! So i really need to give my legs some rest but then if my legs get better, then i'll go clubbing earlier.
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Well, well...what a sickening way to end the day!!

Just got a good scolding from my dad for being late. I just came back at about 11.10 pm. I was late coz i went to buy a new phone. I got myself the Nokia 6220 after trading in my Samsung phone at M1.

The guy who served me was an asshole-tat's all i can say! Really a big asshole-its very difficult to explain how that guy pissed me but all i can say is that he's an ass!!!!

I'm sure my mum was the one who instigated me dad. We are not on good terms right and i told her that i'm going to VIP tomorrow after my rehearsel and she must have wanted to create trouble for me.I just hate her!!!!! Know i shouldn't hate my mum but there are some issues about her behaviour that keep getting on my nerves!!!

Ok, i better not brood about anything. Anyway good news-me going for an interview for a Kindergarten teacher job at Sunset Way.

Wish me luck!!!!
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U know what i slept at 10.30 yesterday-shiok man!!! Its been a long time since i slept at that time!!

Today was a normal day-normal office, normal colleagues, normal work and normal shit! And Elsie came back to work and so i could not relax.

I went to watch 'The Eye 2'today at GV Plaza Sing.It was a ok movie. BUt i still prefer the first one. It was more scary and sensible. This movie is abit stupid but then still scary. Me planning to see Scooby Doo 2 once its out.

Scooby Dooby Dooooooo!
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Well, my throat feels very dry-think i need to drink more water.

Today was an ok, again today Felicia and i were a bit crazy-distrubing each other and making each other and others also laugh at the same time.

When i was coming back from lunch, a small kid outside my customer service centre was moving here and there and went i tried to walk avoiding it, it banged into me and fell and started crying really loud!! And i was like-Oh my god!!! And almost everybody was looking at me!!! Luckily the mother didn't scold and just gave me a smile.

You know i wore my new green coloured lens to work today and boy i look a bit scary. Hehehehehehe!!!

I think i am going to sleep now. My eyes are very painful.

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Good Morning, its Wednesday.

Elsie's not in again and i'm feeling really a bit lazy. So i'll just skive on the job while i can. Wonder when she is coming back.

Anyway after work, i went to Seiyu at Lot 1. There was some sales on bags and wallets and purse. I tot of buying but the design i wanted was not there so i decided that i'll go today and see if the design i like has stock.

Then went back and made the curry puff filling. But i tried something new by using bread as the crust and then toasting it but it was not so nice compared to using the original curst. I think i might do that today.

Yesterday was quite a good day as Felicia and I were a bit crazy disturbing each other and also disturbing the temp staff next to us. Really had a good time laughing yesterday-what happened to us!!!

At night, they showed this new series on Channel 5-'Incredible Tales'. Something like a horror true-life account kinda show. It was quite scary. Then as usual Smallville-my weekly dose of ogling at Smallville. Oh i just love that guy!! Cute isn't he!!!oh well....

Ok, duty calls!!


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Ok, now i'm in the office, drowning myself with coffee to keep myself awake. You know i have been drinking coffee every morning since last Thursday just to keep myself awake. I know this is bad so i gotta stop drinking coffee everyday.

Well, Monday was not such a bad day thanks to the fact that Elsie was not around. And i didn't have much things to do. Just cleared the important stuff.

Then i went to Lot 1 after work and bought a black pants since the one i had tore and a bright red top. I know that i do not wear this kind of colours but then it looked too nice not to be bought and it looked nice on me too. Maybe i should be more colourful instead of dull black and plain colours. Then met my cousin sister-Letchumi there and we had McDonalds together.

Went back home and Mum was at home. Guess she's on MC. Anyway i'm fighting with her. Not on good terms with her. Then i watched a Tamil movie VCD that Ravi(a security guard here) lent me and then slept at about 1+ and as usual had a hard time waking up. Now is my sleeping season where i feel very sleepy and lethargic. I have these kind of seasons at times. There was this period of time(for about 4 months) where i woke up very early and went to work at 7.45 or 7.35 when i started work at 8.30. Wierd right!!

Ok, i gotta get back to work now. The workload doesn't seem much but then its not too little either.
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Saturday was my off day and my mum told me on Friday that we were going to JB and i planned to reborn my hair there but then she cocked up the plans by saying that she is not going to JB. Then we went to tekka to buy groceries for the house.

Came back and then went to my uncle's house to help him set the settings for his internet connection. And then we went out for dinner at the coffeeshop near the Woodlands Customs. It was Seafood Chinese stlye but halal. The food was ok, not so bad.

Then came back and then just watched tv and surfed the net for a while. Boring!!!

Guess what this morning, i woke up at 6.30 coz i'm so used to waking up late only on a Sunday that i told today was Monday coz i woke up late yesterday. Man my life sucks!!!But i managed to go to sleep again and woke up at 10.45 am.

Then i just sweeped the house and then bathed and then left the house to meet Aminah at Causeway Point. I got my stuff from her and then shopped at there for a while. I bought a short denim skirt and a green stripes top at 77th street coz it was nice. Spent about $70 bucks today!! I like the top-very cool!! Might wear it for the pageant but then its a bit simple.

Then went for the rehearsel and Pam told me that the pageant has been postponed to next Monday-this is sickening-they keep changing the dates. Next Monday better be the pageant-i'm getting impatient, i rather have it done with rather then dragging it.

So there is two rounds. One traditional with a saree(i'll be wearing a black and silver one) and then a hip-hop round.(i'm still thinking what to wear-maybe my jeans skirt and the top i bought today and sunglasses and maybe i should get a JLo kind of hat!!). I and 3 other girls will be during a dance number for the song-"Get Busy!! Cool right!!

Ok, me gonna sleep-gotta slog tomorrow!!!
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Today is PAY DAY!!!!

Yipee it feels great when you got money!!!

Ok, well yesterday i was very very, i mean very very busy at work!!! I had so many things to do. And since i was very shagged, i didn't want to go for rehearsal but Pam requested me to come so i went for her sake.

I'll be taking part in the 1st Quarter-finals on Monday at Club 6. I have another rehearsal on Sunday.Came back and straight went to bed-couldn't take it-very tired!

Today i had a also a lot of things to clear. I'm going bonkers!!!! Why are the customers calling so much and asking for so many requests!!!!!

Then today i went for class. I'm thinking of changing school coz i find that the teacher kinda of sucks! Her teaching is not that great. I don't really understand most of what she is teaching!

I'll try to surf the internet to find out more about classes conducted at ITE. Then i gotta sleep!!Yipee-tomorrow is my off!!!!

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Well, Tuesday was not such a bad day. Did my normal stuff and then went to temple in the evening with Vanitha.Been a long time since i went temple, felt nice after going.

Anyway i bought this shawl at the MERSC Club during lunch. A purplish maroon colour shawl for just $5. The material also very soft.So i decided to get some for my aunts and mother for Mothers' Day when they come next month.

Then came back and rushed in washing my dishes, just to catch Smallville. It was quite stupid yesterday.Could not understand anything in the storyline but anyway had a good time ogling at Tom Welling.

Today was also just another day-just that i went to the Sneak Preview of 'The Haunted Mansion'. It was a funny movie-not very scary but ok la.

The best thing about this week is that i'm on off this Sat. I'm really looking forward to it. My mum told me that we might be going to JB-a long time since i went there.Yipee!!!!

I keep changing my diary design-i still can't find the perfect one-nvr mind i'll keep changing and changing!!!!!!!

Ok, me gonna fill in an application for a job at MDA.

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Its another Monday!

Bad News-i didn't get the job at Learning Vision. They said that they wanted Chinese teachers more. Shitty right! Now i have to start looking for jobs again. Shitty right!! Oh what the hell!!!

What else can i say about Monday, it was boring as usual.

Feel a bit sick and goggy.I think i'm gonna get the flu. Anyway my knee joints are painful from all that dancing. Gotta sleep early and rest so that i'll feel better.

Pam called and told me that there's a rehearsal on Thursday. Man, this week, i'm jam-packed! Tuesday-going temple,Wed-got that movie to watch and Thurs-rehearsal. Shitty!!

Almost everything shitty now-thanks to the foul mood i have!!!

ZZZzzzzzz.......


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Another freak out Saturday!

Well, Friday wasn't any different. Same stuff-work and school! But i kinda of freak-outed when June from Learning Vision didn't call till about 2 so i called her and she told me that she'll call me on Monday. Still waiting for the call.

You know what i have won 2 tics to watch 'The Haunted Mansion'-thanks to entering that contest in Perfect 10's website. This is my second time winning tis kind of competition. First time, i won through Straits Times for the Bond movie-Die Another Day. Yipee!! Now i am thinking who to bring along.

Well, Saturday wasn't such a bad day-just that Felicia told me that she'll need my help in the afternoons from Mon onwards. Guess i have a lot of things to do starting tomorrow!! Sian!!!

Then in the evening, i went for another puberty ceremony at Woodlands, then went to Aminah's house and changed there and went to VIP with her. Had another freak out Saturday!!!

But the drawback was, i saw one of Osman's camp mates there. Every time i danced with my friends, he was looking and i was feeling quite uneasy. Osman doesn't know that i now have a life enjoying myself-he stills thingks that i still the good girl..hehehe! Then he came to me and said that i looked familiar and i told him that i was Osman's ex-gf and then i also told him not to tell Osman abt seeing me and he said that he has lost all contact with him. Heng!!! Then we had a dance together.I was really dancing to the max-non stop. Had a great time!!!

Today was not that great! Same old shit-mopping, cleaning and then watching tv. I think i'll have my dinner and sleep early!!


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I'm in the office now and my eyes is very very very painful!!

Well, yesterday nite, i stayed over at my cousin's place just a few bus-stops away since it has been quite some time since i went over and also since her husband was on night duty. I went to sleep without taking my contact lens which was already giving me some problems. So lazy of me and i deserve this pain!!!

Well, my clear lens have been giving me some probs. Every time i wear it for the past few days, it's irritating and painful. So yesterday to rest my eyes, i wore specs to work. I was wearing this dress and everyone said i look very professional with my specs on. Cool huh!!! Then i thought it might be ok if i wear my lens again but its making my eyes very painful. Shit!!

Well, as usual it sucks to come to work. The same damn stupid office!

Ya, there's something about Parthi. Well, was talking to him on tuesday and he was saying that he has a gf whom he is going to marry next year and then after hanging up, i couldn't sleep and was thinking:

Why on earth did he make friends with me!! You know i can't stand men who try to get to know girls when they are already attached. I hate this kind of men!!! Why can't they just talk to their own girlfriends? Why do they need to talk to other girls? So i decided to maintain my distance with him since he is attached.

Then yesterday when i was talking to Aminah and told her about it, she told me that he had not mentioned anything about a gf. And she also mentioned that its hard to believe that he has a gf becoz of his lifestyle. He's staying in camp from Mondays to Fridays and then spends this time with his friends and family on weekends. Then how on earth does he have a time for a girlfriend?

Do men like to twist and turn stories about themselves?? Aiyoh, another man that you cannot trust. I have another friend like tat-Anand.I know him for quite some time. When i asked about him to his friend(Ragu), he told me that he's married but Anand told me that he's single.

I just don't understand men!! Why? Why? Why?

Anyway forget it la. No time to bother about them. They are just full of crap and shit.

Ok, ok, i better get back to work. Elsie hasn't moved from her desk for a while, that's why i decided to key in.

Hehehehehehehehe............


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Today was quite a busy day at CSC.Had quite a lot of things to do.

Feel a bit sad though. Got that lousy feeling again. About me being alone and stuff!

Actually it would have been perfect if only Bala had not left me.He was my boyfriend for 4 months after Osman.A very good-looking guy-he looks like Johnny Depp-serious(no kidding!) and we had so much in common. We clicked on very well but then it didn't work as we started having too many fights. But he was a great guy! Good boyfriend! P>

I kinda of miss him !But i also hate him. Reminds of that Stacie Orrico song line-i hate you but i can't forget you...or something like that!

Every time i see Johnny Depp, i get reminded of him.Gosh, never did i thought i could capture a man this handsome. Hehehehehe!!!!

Never mind-past is past-i gotta move on. Sometimes when you are single, wierd things can go on in your mind!

Ok, me gonna sleep!

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Today is Monday!! And it wasn't so blue for me coz i got to sleep a bit later since i was going for the interview.

I went for the interview. The interviewer informed that if i am selected i will be sponsored to go for a Diploma in Early-Childhood Education for 6 months and then i'll be bonded for 2 years. During the 6 months i'll be paid $500 every month. I don't mind!!! I hope i get the job. Hopefully!!

Then went to the office and just did my normal stuff and then also bought back some things from the office. I wanna start bringing some stuff back so that if i quit, then i won't have so many things to bring back.

Nothing much interesting happened today just that Parthi called me at 6.30 am just to disturb my sleep. Asshole!!! But i still slept till 8 am...hehehe!!! That guy very free, he boring like to disturb me and my friend. Naughty fellow!!

Goody Night!!!
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